Sometimes it feels like the ones who need to listen the most, are the ones that aren't listening or paying attention. Whenever I find out that there is something else wrong with me, I want to do as much research as possible. I need to find out the whys of my body reacting incorrectly or dysfunctioning, and how it could relate to other problems that I have. I find there is a correlation of mind functioning, emotional functioning, and physical functioning or I should say dysfunctioning.
So, when I was diagnosed with RA (Rheumatoid Arthritis) after having years of hand pain, I immediately, (well after I was a bit distracted and annoyed, and frustrated (which seems to be my normal mood lately), I found out that RA can result in issues with the eye, such as dry eyes (which I have in my left eye), vision issues (such as blurry vision) which happens a lot to me in my left eyes, as sometimes, I cannot see very well, unless I close my left eye. So, today, I had an eye doctor's appoint (ophthalmologist) and I mentioned (again about my vision issues, seeing shadows, etc), and that i was diagnosed with RA.
That was it. He did the exam, and I felt like he was rushing through it, and then, he handed me a new prescription for my glasses, told me it would help the changes in the right eye, but not the left, and see me in six months.
So, even if no one reads this, I found an outlet. I use my drawings or art (such that it is) to help release it.
Also, I have opened a website for domestic violence resource and survivors to share their stories.
So, that's just my frustration. Another frustration.
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