Normally, my personal therapy (besides my counselor and psychiatrist) (and no, I'm not embarrassed to admit that I not only have physical disorders, but I have depression, anxiety and PTSD just to name the "big ones." Anyway, my personal therapy was always writing. What I couldn't feel, I could write on paper. I try to do that now, and sometimes I can only write one word or a few lines before my hands cramp up or hurt. (Now I know it's rheumatoid arthritis, but for over two years, I thought it was the tremors causing pain.)
I used to sketch when I was younger, abstract mainly or even "design" my "dream house" which included floor plan, and what it looked like on the outside. Now, my "dream home" is just to be different from where I am now, have my own bedroom, (and a room for William and maybe a room to be a library (I have a lot of books, go figure), a washer and dryer, AND it must be accessible (and not another apartment complex).
So, there's that. And then I started sketching again, because if your hands shake you can say it's part of the art. So, I sketched, and created "art" on photoshop. I bought some canvases, made my own, and used paint markers, pencils, or regular markers to create what I consider art therapy. It may or may not be good (I'm not an art critic), and it may not make sense to others, but it shows my emotions that sometimes I can't even feel.
So, if you like or even hate what you see, tell me why. I can't make myself better. No one can, but it's just another way to unleash when I can't say the words.
My latest is my "self" portrait.
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